05/19/2013 01:09:04
“I feel the same way about God as I do about my parents: ambivalent, and I don’t expect much help.”
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Athena, holding your hair, whispering in your ear
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For me a few are enough, one is enough, none is enough. This is not for the many but for you; we are a sufficient audience for each other
In this wine-dark sea, among the waves, please find : musical rambling, occasional original content, and piles of sonnets
For all inquiries, ask here or at alexander.raban at gmail
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05/17/2013 21:25:00
Bitter orange mead a land of deepest shade unpierced by human thought damp university flake apocalypse songs robins fighting over detritus spheres of ice homemade amplification the burning eyes of evening turned towards my island light, “and I am all thumbelina, I died for you all”
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05/07/2013 20:36:29
reluctantly
True Facts. Assassins love slowly if at all
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05/07/2013 20:05:36
Even at Alamut, love creeps in
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05/07/2013 19:36:00
That’s kind of what I meant by the incredibly inadequate phrase “figured out.” I read all of those ideas in Seneca, in Crowley, in Nietzsche and in Plutarch ten years before I managed to begin internalizing them (to the extent I’ve even managed to internalize them at all).great list, although it’s pretty hard to really -get- most of those things even if you’re aware of them. I’ve been repeating something much like your n.c. at myself for years but I’m starting to think I’ll never convince myself. Own worst pupil hah.
Failure still stings, and will sting forever. I’m no stoic sage, and no aeon-magus, nor was meant to be; am an attendant nerd, fit to swell a tumblr, fan a flame or two, et cet., et cet.
(but I suspect that failure even bites the Catones of the world; “these be mysteries/ chief of these/ were cowardice in Hercules”)
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05/07/2013 19:10:00
Short list of things I wish I’d figured out earlier in life
Axiom: You can do everything right* and still fail completely (not all hands of solitaire can actually be won)
Necessary Corollary of the axiom: Failure is not necessarily a referendum on your personal worth or character.
Postulate: Most things outside of your own head are actually not really under your control, and half the things inside your head aren’t either.
Suggestion: Do what is in your power to do, and the rest will have to take care of itself
Corollary suggestion: Included in the category of things “in your power to do” is sorcery, but do everything else first.
2nd Corollary suggestion: Regret is a complete waste of time that only compounds loss.
Conclusion: You’ll still fail at things frequently, and that’s fine.
[*”right” in the sense that you made the game theoretical best choice for achieving your goals from among the choices available to you, i.e. there are situations in which no “better move” that you could have taken under the circumstances would have actually resulted in more success (or any success)]
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05/06/2013 19:49:14
I’ve only heard one track but I dug itIt’s been a little bit since I deliberately listened to an album three times back to back. It’s like a lost Banshees album just surfaced in my living room.
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05/06/2013 18:43:00
I had heard of them, but never heard them (got lost in the mists of time, and I thought they were all sold out). I’m gonna track down some files (looks like boomkat has ‘em) and give ‘em a test toast, if they’re as good as I’d expect, I’ll hunt down the vinyl.jsut the five from 2008-2009, which it seems like you’ve heard. last i checked, forced exposure still had some. so fucking good.
Thanks (forever and as always) for the hot tip :-)
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05/06/2013 18:36:00
The new Savages record is fucking nuts. I don’t even know what to do with it it’s so good. I can’t sit still, it’s almost alarming how in my lane this thing is.
I want to eat it and then throw the album sleeve on the ground and roll around on it like a dog.
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05/06/2013 18:24:00
you need to check out those HATE 12”s if you haven’t, yet.
Are there new ones? Who is selling them? I was only aware of the 2009 stuff
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05/05/2013 10:05:00
They’re pretty great. The first one had a sort of unfinished vibe that really fit the project well. The second one is a little more polished. I’m looking forward to where this project is going.i need to get those. and soon.
In related news, for my dark ambient/mutant bass music dollar, the Black Magic Cannot Cross Water ep is my favorite thing this year so far.
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05/05/2013 00:14:33
I dreamt I managed to get this on the context menu IRL.
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05/04/2013 23:07:00
When exactly did they start making transparent blue-marble vinyl (and why is it so beautiful)? What is the point of having a goofy line of faux-testpressings if you’re going to package hauntingly beautiful discs in the generic paper sleeves?
The sleeve even says it will be black; you need to decide on a theme for your art project and stop tormenting me with your radiant wax!
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05/04/2013 22:46:00
No seriously, tell me the secret of the anti gods. I want to know it. If any of you know it, please be a pal and tell me at your earliest convenience (now is not the time to hold out on this kind of thing).
(I may or may not have been drinking three-year-old four-lokos that I forgot about I’ve been cellaring in the basement)
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04/30/2013 22:21:04
My allergies have completely distracted me from Walpurgisnacht!!!! uggghhhSneeze yer way to Satan!
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